As Deep Down As Mine...

My writers block is back...
Like a wall of steel concealing the words laced with feeling and the real meanings of the mind. Of my mind.
I have so much to say right now.
Every word or thought evaporates before I get the chance to drown a page with what I need to acknowledge.

So much has changed. So many things are different. I am okay with change. The differences on the other hand, will take some time to get used to.
I cannot lie and say that I don't miss it. I also cannot lie and say that I don't wish it was different.
But... that is life. That is exactly what life is. Life is simply full of things that are too intricate to understand their intent. Their meaning. I try to understand and accept everything for what it is and how it is. I really do.
I still care. I'll always care. I still wish deep down inside that the care is returned. Even if it's as deep down as mine.
I suppose I may never know.

I believe in so much. I believe in love. I believe in dreams. I believe in this. I also believe that things are as they are for a reason. Unknown now. Soon to be recognized and acknowledged and understood.
I'll understand. In time.